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My Story (detailed)


I became a coach in 2017.


My approach helps my clients create new ways of doing things for themselves through self care and wellness practices.


During my roughly 25 years in Corporate America I repeatedly told others and myself that I loved every minute of my back breaking job and the 70 - 90% travel that came with it.


While I was deep into my Corporate stint, I neglected self care, any form of stress mitigation, and therefore my entire self.


It took years for me to realize that I was running from myself, my needs, and my unhappiness.


I ran so far and fast from myself, my life, my needs, and my unhappiness that I faced permanent disability in my early 40s. I was in chronic, debilitating pain.


As it turns out, living without mitigating stress, blindly running from your problems, drowning them in addictions, and avoiding dealing with past trauma has consequences. Who knew?


Finally, I had enough. I made self-care and wellness the two staples of my life.


After having some initial success, a thought blossomed: what if I could heal myself?






For several years, I tried multiple holistic and traditional treatments as well as monitoring my self care. I found the things that worked for me, which included:

  • quitting drugs and alcohol

  • checking in with what I needed

  • resting

  • meditation


FYI, drinking more water also helped. Sometimes a gallon of coffee just doesn’t do it.


I was able to alleviate my pain in short bursts. These short bursts of 5 - 10 minutes gave me hope.


To help release my anger surrounding my physical state, I started to practice forgiveness. I started to find time to meditate. Initially, slowing down my racing thoughts was incredibly difficult. I practiced gratitude.


Finally, for an hour or so at a time, I could disconnect myself from physical pain through various practices, especially with meditation, massage, and acupuncture.


This added to my frustration, because I just wanted the pain to disappear. However, it always returned.


I made amazing progress, enough to become active again. Despite this progress, the nerve damage down my left leg seemed to continue to worsen. My left leg was losing noticeable strength. I still struggled with chronic pain and my frustration and hopelessness around it brought up racing thoughts like:


  • Will I ever heal?

  • Will I ever be able to live without pain?

  • Other people have healed themselves with their mind, so why can’t I?

  • What am I missing?

  • What if this is as good as it gets for me?


I spent multiple years limping from a variety of knee issues, unresolved nerve pain, and nerve damage in my left leg.


Once again, I tried as many alternatives as I could:


Radio Frequency Ablation that had worked wonderfully in the past.


Cortisone shots to temporarily resolve back pain which had worked in prior years.


Energy healing to get some relief through energy work and alternative medicine.


Massage therapy to relax the tense and pissed off muscles.


Chiropractic and Acupuncture and cold lasers to manipulate the spine and reduce inflammation.


This time, nothing worked. At best, an injection or a massage or chiropractic appointment would provide about 10-15% relief for a few days. But even when carefully using them together, the pain would be back in full force again in just a matter of days.


The back injuries were so severe, I had lost more than two inches off my height. In late 2020, an X-Ray showed worsened scoliosis and slipped discs in different directions at the top and bottom of my lumbar spine.


And that news wasn’t all. My doctor also revealed more good news about the facet joint impeding on my peripheral nerves. Evidently, I fractured it at some point in time, and the result was that the space that’s normally there was gone, and the bone was constantly rubbing on the nerve.


My doctors lined up an updated MRI and neurosurgery consult, and showed compassion for my need for such aggressive treatment at a relatively young age. I did everything they recommended, I scheduled the MRI, went to the pain therapist regularly, and took my medication.


Then, a previous thought returned: what if I could heal myself …with my mind.


The realization that I could use my mind to heal myself changed everything.


I started to experiment with another healing modality. Both resigned to and terrified of the idea that surgery was my only chance, I figured trying one more thing wouldn’t hurt. This new modality didn’t advertise claims to be able to heal my pain, but I tried it nonetheless.


I struck gold. The pain was gone. I had found something that worked for me. Months went by and my energy kept increasing.


My dedication to healing myself was working. My 8 years of chronic pain had come to an end.


I cancelled the remaining scheduled appointments with the pain therapist, as well as the MRI and neurosurgery consult. My doctors celebrated with me.


Finally, I had answers, and I knew in my heart:


  • I can heal!

  • I get to live without pain!

  • I can regain strength!

  • Ouch doesn’t have to be my first thought in the morning.

  • I can show others what’s available to them too!


I continued my commitment to meditation and movement. This was real, and I found my way out of chronic pain.


Even on days when I did too much, my body would rarely return to the levels of pain that had previously been my norm. Even my newest high pain levels could be relieved by a bath, some stretches, and a good night’s rest.


My mood continued to improve, as did my commitment to teach others how to find their way out of pain.


As I worked my way through pain, it became clear to me that I had a gift. I could help others alleviate pain and incorporate better stress management into their life. The struggles I lived through and later overcame enabled me to help those who are suffering and want help. I can help people at a deeper level by helping them learn how to harness the full power of their minds. I could never do that through my corporate career.


Today, I consider myself pain free. Yes, there are some days when I feel achy and stiff. On those days, I'm gentle with myself and have learned how to rest in order to bounce back fairly quickly.


I still fear that the pain may return. After all, eight years is a long time to hurt.


Each day, I continue to work through my fear and let go of pain.


Each day, my quality of life improves.


Each day, I shed more fear.


Chronic doesn’t have to mean permanent.®


The rewards can be immediate for you, just as they were immediate for me.


Are you ready to let me teach you how?


Education

Bachelor of Science in Business Administration - Northeastern University

Cognomovement Practitioner’s Level 1 Certification


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